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Post by cherry on Mar 19, 2009 0:19:31 GMT -8
July 8th 2006
Skipped school today. Was really ill this morning and I couldn't be bothered. I had double chemistry with Mr. Myatt anyway. I hate him. I hate chemistry. Science isn't my thing. Perry skipped with me and we went and sat in the park. For once without alcohol. I felt well to ill to bother with it today.
That's really about all I've done today. How boring is that?
Only Perry said something earlier. She was only joking but it's all I can think about now. Am I pregnant?
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July 9th 2006
I bought the test today. Cost me ten quid! I'm gonna do it first thing in the morning. It says morning pisses are better to do a pregnancy test with. Like it matters what time you piss; you're either pregnant or you're not.
I'm actually just stalling for time. Damnit.
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July 10th 2006
I'm pregnant. I'm fucking pregnant.
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August 2nd 2006
I spoke to Dave today. He's the only one who could be the dad since I'm not the slut everyone thinks I am. He's gonna love that.. His wife's gonna love it even more. Seventeen and pregnant by a married man. Doesn't it just sound like my mother all over? She always said I'd end up like her. Bitch was right.
This shit isn't even funny.
But yeah I spoke to Dave and he said it couldn't be his! So I showed him the dates I'd worked out with the doctor yesterday, and then he just went "Get rid of it." Well I was way ahead of him there. It's fucking booked. I'm not giving up my life for some kid. I'm seventeen, and I intend to live my life, not spend it wiping a shitty arse.
So why doesn't this feel right?
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September 12th 2006
It's done. My baby's dead and I'm hollow as fuck inside. I don't even wanna write in this journal. Mom's at work and Perry's coming round in a few and we're gonna get fucking hammered. Leathered. Wankered. Out of it. DRUNK.
Blergh. I wish I could stop crying; my make up's running everywhere.
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