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Post by cherry on Mar 15, 2009 8:24:15 GMT -8
May 3rd 2004
I'd never really thought of taking drugs before now, and that's the truth. Sure I've been drinking as much as I can for two or three years now, but drugs are like this whole other level. Okay, thats a lie. I've smoked weed a few times, but nothing else. Oh, I sniffed poppers at Roxy's houseparty. But that's it. Then Perry calls me and tells me she's got hold of some beak, and I was pretty curious. I mean, it's not like it was gonna kill me. So I went back to hers with her after school (her parentals always work out of town on weekends. That's why the houseparties are always at Pez's on Saturday nights) and Danny and Spike came with us. Spike's a dick, but his brother's a dealer so we get all our shit from him. Pez and Spike have done beak before. Infact, they've done shitloads.
Anyway, so to cut the story short, I tried beak and it was amayyy! I can't describe what it was like, but it was so much stronger than weed. It was well good. We're gonna get some more for tomorrow night 'cause I think Perry's having another houseparty. Woop!
We watched a movie, Interview With A Vampire, and it was dead good. I proper love vampires. I wanna be one. That'd be mint.
Oh yeah, Danny asked me out today. Again. I feel really tight on him, 'cause I keep saying no, but we're really good mates, and I don't want to risk that if we got together and the relationship went sour. Besides, I'm like fifteen years old. I dont need that love bullshit. Maybe when I'm thirty or something I might get married if the right guy comes along, but for now it's all about being single and lovinggg it!
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May 10th 2004
So yeah, I've been a total fuckface. I slept with Danny and now it's ded awkward. We got really hammered and it just happened. And it was good, that's the worst bit. I bet I've fucked it up between us now. Well it wasn't just me, it ws him too, but it's still all fucked.
Man, I need to stop saying 'fuck' so much. I need a new word. cunt?
Shit. Did we use a condom?
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May 12th 2004
I spoke to Danny on the phone last night and we're cool. I just said we should put it down to the weed and the shitmixes we were drinking, and he just sort of agreed. I feel proper tight on him 'cause I know he likes me, but I didn't do it on purpose. He said not to worry, and we're still good mates. I'm well glad it's sorted. And we did use a johnny. He found it, used, in his bed the next morning LMAO.
I bororrowed Interview With A Vampire off Pez today and I've watched it twice already, even though its, like, three hours long or something stupid? Probably not that long, more like two. But anyway. Yeah, it's fucking ace! I proper want to be a vampire. I'd kill to meet Louis or Lestat. How shit is it that they're not real? Answer: very!
We're going out later, all the gang. Spike reckons he knows a pub where we'll get served, which'll be a bit better than sitting round the back of the Civic.
Mum had a go at me about my drinking earlier. Stupid bitch tried to ground me. As if, mate! She's got work tonight anyway, so she isn't gonna know if I've gone out or not. Not like she cares anyway. She keeps saying I'm gonna make the same mistakes as she did, and then we had a massive argument 'cause she basically called me a mistake with that statement (Pez thinks so too; I told her). I well hate her sometimes. She was all like "I just dont want you to wind up dead in a gutter". Like that'll happen; I can take care of myself. I'm not gonna end up dead, or pregnant as a teenager like her. fuck that shit. Fuck that shit right off.
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